Regrets

I know most people say that they don't live with regrets...that you can't change the past, so why feel bad about it? Well, I've been thinking about this for a couple days now and I think it's total crap.

I mean, I think it's totally acceptable to have some regrets...and some of them don't really need to have any impact on the rest of your life. Like, I wish I had tried harder in Chemistry my Freshman year of college. If I had done better in that class, I would have graduated Magna cum Laude instead of just cum Laude. And to be honest, that's probably the only thing it would have affected. Do I think I'll be turned down from a job because of my piss poor grades in one class in college? Nah...but it still would have been nice to graduate with that honor.

And what about money that I wasted on crap I never used...I don't even want to think about the stuff I've gotten rid of in the last few days as I get ready to move. And that's money that I could have saved or spent on something more constructive. Though, to be honest, I probably would have just blown the money on something else I really didn't need...so I guess I can't spend too much time pondering it.

But then there are the moments that I really wish I could have as a "do over". The times when I said things that really hurt people...sometimes damaging relationships forever. It's not that I want to change the past in an effort to affect the present. I'm not looking for my own version of "The Butterfly Effect". I'm okay with those people not being in my life anymore...I just wish I hadn't caused pain. And in those instances where the relationship wasn't permanently damaged, I wish I could take back the mean/rude things in an effort to calm my guilty conscience. Catholic much? haha

So there we have it - my take on regrets. Regrets have the potential to encourage change in the future. They remind us of what it is we want to avoid. I do think most people have them...and I think that's okay.

Excuses, excuses

I realize I haven't written anything in a few days...okay, maybe more than "a few". I wish I could say it is because I'm terribly busy with very important details of my exciting life. Granted, I also wish I could say I'm writing my entries while sitting on a beach, soaking up the sun and drinking a margarita. Truth of the matter is - I didn't want to update about the details of my recent life, which basically consists of working at the daycare and packing for the move...with an occassional wedding detail thrown in for good measure.

Jeff was home on leave this month, which was amazing. I have to admit...I was a little worried about what things would be like, as we hadn't seen each other in about six months. I know he was a little concerned about it as well. Yeah for us, though...it wasn't an issue at all! We spent a lot of time with friends and family and went on some pretty fun adventures. I was reminded of what pyros Jeff and his brother are...kerosene and huge piles of wood, anyone? Maybe top it off with some fireworks in the yard?

Once I get the pictures off the camera (probably when we set up the computer in the new apartment...about five weeks), I'll post some in here. Spice things up, if you will.

Let's try this again

Well, thank you SO MUCH, Blogger. I'm really glad I could take the opportunity to create a blog only for you to decide it was obviously spam and freeze it. Yeah, I know you unfroze it after a few days. I'm not even that salty about the situation. I actually think the idea of my alter-ego being a Spambot is a neat idea...and if I didn't already have a Halloween costume, I'd probably be making something fantastic out of canned ham labels.

This all being said, I've decided to take the plunge once more with a brand spanking new blog. Will I update this thing often? Maybe not so much. But it might be a good place to document some of the changes that will be coming up in the next few weeks. LIKE, for example, the fact that I will actually be living with my husband in about six weeks! What, you mean not everyone is married for 14 months before actually living together? Well....now this is awkward.